NIN Lyrics

Mr. Self Destruct

I am the voice inside your head and I control you.
I am the lover in your bed...and I control you.
I am the sex that you provide...and I control you.
I am the hate you try to hide...and I control you.
I take you where you want to go.
I give you all you need to know.
I drag you down I use you up.
mr self destruct.
I speak religion's message clear...and I control you.
I am denial guilt and fear...and I control you.
I am the prayers of the naive...and I control you.
I am the lie that you believe...and I control you.
I take you where you want to go.
I give you all you need to know.
I drag you down I use you up.
mr self destruct.
I am the needle in your vein...and I control you.
I am the high you can't sustain...and I control you.
I am the pusher I'm a whore...and I control you.
I am the need you have for more and I control you.
I am the bullet in the gun...and I control you.
I am the truth from which you run...and I control you.
I am the silencing machine...and I control you.
I am the end of all your dreams...and I control you.
I take you where you want to go.
I give you all you need to know.
I drag you down I use you up.
mr self destruct.



Piggy

hey pig.
yeah you.
hey pig piggy pig pig pig.
all of my fears came true.
black and blue and broken bones you left me here I'm all alone.
my little piggy needed something new.
nothing can stop me now.
I just don't care.
hey pig.
nothing's turning out the way I planned.
hey pig there's a lot of things I hoped you could help me understand.
what am I supposed to do I lost my shit because of you.
nothing can stop me now.
I don't care anymore.
nothing can stop me now.
'cause I don't care anymore.
I just don't care.
nothing can stop me now.
you don't need me anymore.



Heresy

he sewed his eyes shut because he is afraid to see.
he tries to tell me what I put inside of me.
he's got the answers to ease my curiosity.
he dreamed a god up and called it christianity.
your god is dead and no one cares.
if there is a hell I will see you there.
he flexed his muscles to keep his flock of sheep in line.
he made a virus that would kill off all the swine.
his perfect kingdom of killing, suffering and pain.
demands devotion atrocities done in his name.
your god is dead and no one cares.
if there is a hell I will see you there.
burning with you god in humility.
will you die for this?.



March Of The Pigs

step right up march push.
crawl right up on your knees.
please greed feed.
I want a little bit I want a piece of it I think he's losing it.
I want to watch it come down.
don't like the look of it don't like the taste of it don't like the smell of it.
I want to watch it come down.
all the pigs are all lined up.
I give you all that you want.
take the skin and peel it back.
now doesn't that make you feel better?.
shove it up inside suprise! lies.
stains like the blood on your teeth.
bite chew suck away the tender parts.
I want to break it up I want to smash it up I want to fuck it up.
I want to watch it come down.
maybe afraid of it let's discredit it let's pick away at it.
I want to watch it come down.
now doesn't that make you feel better.
the pigs have won tonight.
now they can all sleep soundly.
and everything is all right.



Closer

you let me violate you. you let me desecrate you.
you let me penetrate you. you let me complicate you.
help me I broke apart my insides. help me i've got no soul to sell.
help me the only thing that works for me. help me get away from myself.
I want to fuck you like an animal.
I want to feel you from the inside.
I want to fuck you like an animal.
my whole existence is flawed.
you get me closer to god.
you can have my isolati.
on. you can have the hate that it brings.
you can have my absence of faith. you can have my everything.
help me tear down my reason. help me it's your sex I can smell.
help me you make me perfect. help me become somebody else.
I want to fuck you like an animal.
I want to feel you from the inside.
I want to fuck you like an animal.
my whole existence is flawed.
you get me closer to god.
through every forest, above the trees.
within my stomach. scraped off my knees.
I drink the honey inside your hive.
you are the reason I stay alive.



Ruiner

you had all of them on your side, didn't you?.
you believed in all your lies, didn't you?.
the ruiner's got a lot to prove he's got nothing to lose and now he made you believe.
the ruiner's your only friend well he's the living end to the cattle he deceives.
the raping of the innocent you know the ruiner ruins everything he sees.
now the only pure thing left in my fucking world is wearing your disease.
how did you get so big?.
how did you get so strong?.
how did you get so hard?.
how did it get so long?.
you had to give them all a sign, didn't you?.
you had to covet what was mine, didn't you?.
the ruiner's a collector he's an infector serving his shit to his flies.
maybe there will come a day when those that you keep blind will suddenly realize.
maybe it's a part of me you took it to a place I hoped it would never go.
and maybe that fucked me up much more than you'll ever know.
how did you get so big?.
how did you get so strong?.
how did you get so hard?.
how did it get so long?.
what you gave to me.
my perfect ring of scars.
you know I can see what you really are.
you didn't hurt me nothing can hurt me.
you didn't hurt me nothing can stop me now.



The Becoming

I beat my machine it's a part of me it's inside of me.
I'm stuck in this dream it's changing me I am becoming.
the me the you know he had some second thoughts.
he's covered with scabs he is broken and sore.
the me that you know doesn't come around much.
that part of me isn't here anymore.
all pain disappears it's the nature of my circuitry.
drowns out all I hear there's no escape from this my new consciousness.
the me that you know he used to have feelings.
but the blood has stopped pumping and he's left to decay.
the me that you know is now made up of wires.
and even when I'm right with you I'm so far away.
I can try to get away but i've strapped myself in.
I can try to scratch away the sound in my ears.
I can see it killing away all my bad parts.
I don't want to listen but it's all to clear.
hiding backwards inside of me I feel so unafraid.
annie, hold a little tighter I might just slip away.
it won't give up it wants me dead.
goddamn this noise inside my head.



I Do Not Want This

I'm losing ground.
you know how this world can beat you down.
I'm made of clay.
I fear I'm the only one who thinks this way.
I'm always falling down the same hill.
bamboo puncturing this skin.
and nothing comes bleeding out of me just like a waterfall I'm drowning in.
2 feet below the surface I can still make out your wavy face.
and if I could just reach you maybe I could leave this place.
I do not want this.
I do not want this.
I do not want this.
I do not want this.
don't you tell me how I feel.
don't you tell me how I feel.
don't you tell me how I feel.
you don't know just how I feel.
I stay inside my bed.
I have lived so many lives all in my head.
don't tell me that you care.
there really isn't anything. is there?.
you would know. wouldn't you?.
you extend your hand to those who suffer.
to those who know what it really feels like.
to those who have had a taste.
like that means something.
and oh so sick I am.
and maybe I don't have a choice.
and maybe that is all I have.
and maybe this is a cry for help.
I do not want this.
I do not want this.
I do not want this.
I do not want this.
don't you tell me how I feel.
don't you tell me how I feel.
don't you tell me how I feel.
you don't know just how I feel.
I want to know everything.
I want to be everywher.
e.
I want to fuck everyone in the world.
I want to do something that matters.



Big Man With A Gun

I am a big man.
yes I am.
and I have a big gun.
got me a big old dick and i.
I like to have fun.
held against your forehead.
I'll make you suck it.
maybe I'll put a hole in your head.
you know, just for the fuck of it.
I can reduce you if I want.
I can devour.
I'm hard as fucking steel, and i've got the power.
I'm every inch a man, and I'll show you somehow.
me and my fucking gun.
nothing can stop me now.
shoot shoot shoot shoot shoot.
I'm going to come all over you.
me and my fucking gun.
me and my fucking gun.



A Warm Place

Instrumental



Eraser

need you.
dream you.
find you.
taste you.
fuck you .
use you.
scar you.
break you.
lose me.
hate me.
smash me.
erase me.



Reptile

she spreads herself wide open to let the insects in.
she leaves a trail of honey to show me where she's been.
she has the blood of reptile just underneath her skin.
seeds from a thousand others drip down from within.
oh my beautiful liar.
oh my precious whore.
my disease my infection.
I am so impure.
devils speak of the ways in which she'll manifest.
angels bleed from the tainted touch of my caress.
need to contaminate to alleviate this loneliness.
I now know the depths I reach are limitless.
oh my beautiful liar.
oh my precious whore.
my disease my infection.
I am so impure.



The Downward Spiral

he couldn't believe how easy it was.
he put the gun into his face.
bang!.
problems have solutions.
a lifetime of fucking things up fixed in one determined flash.
everything's blue.
in this world.
the deepest shade of mushroom blue.
all fuzzy.
spilling out of my head.



Hurt

I hurt myself today.
to see if I still feel.
I focus on the pain.
the only thing that's real.
the needle tears a hole.
the old familiar sting.
try to kill it all away.
but I remember everything.
what have I become?.
my sweetest friend.
everyone I know.
goes away in the end.
you could have it all.
my empire of dirt.
I will let you down.
I will make you hurt.
I wear my crown of shit.
on my liar's chair.
full of broken thoughts.
I cannot repair.
beneath the stain of time.
the feeling disappears.
you are someone else.
I am still right here.
what have I become?.
my sweetest friend.
everyone I know.
goes away in the end.
you could have it all.
my empire or dirt.
I will let you down.
I will make you hurt.
if I could start again.
a million miles away.
I would keep myself.
I would find a way.